I have had my bags packed,except for the usual last minute items, for almost 2 weeks.
I have worked on documents to take and hope I have notarized my last item for a long time.
Derek and I have never packed so light for ourselves on any trip ever. Our clothes are combined into one suitcase for a whole week and we have one suitcase entirely devoted to baby essentials. This makes my heart happy.
I keep trying to think of what that moment will be like when we get to meet sweet Silas for the first time. I keep wondering how Derek or I will react. We are bringing a video camera so I hope to be able to get such a precious moment on film.
It still looks unlikely that we will be able to visit Judah due to the adoption cases of children from closed orphanages being on hold. I keep wondering how that will feel to be on the same continent as him and to not be able to meet him or hold him.
I am praying we will pass our court date with all paperwork necessary to be there.
There are a lot of BIG things going on and I know God is at work.
It is a weird feeling though, knowing that everything I know now is about to change. But, it is so good. This change is good and we are ready for it.
This has been a long process (to us) and it still isn't over. There are many details left to finish everything, but I am leaving it totally in God's hands. I find great peace in knowing He is in control because I certainly don't know what is going on at times.
In our church service today the pastor said something that stuck with me. He asked if we trusted God enough to know that even if we couldn't see his hand in everything, we knew to trust His heart. I know his purposes are greater than mine even if I can not see it at the time. I am learning to trust like never before.
I hope to be able to update and blog throughout our trip (depending on internet available and perhaps share a few pictures of at least one pretty cute little boy).
It is a weird feeling though, knowing that everything I know now is about to change. But, it is so good. This change is good and we are ready for it.
This has been a long process (to us) and it still isn't over. There are many details left to finish everything, but I am leaving it totally in God's hands. I find great peace in knowing He is in control because I certainly don't know what is going on at times.
In our church service today the pastor said something that stuck with me. He asked if we trusted God enough to know that even if we couldn't see his hand in everything, we knew to trust His heart. I know his purposes are greater than mine even if I can not see it at the time. I am learning to trust like never before.
I hope to be able to update and blog throughout our trip (depending on internet available and perhaps share a few pictures of at least one pretty cute little boy).
