The constant change of emotions through all of this.
It's hard. I have to pray a lot that I won't be overwhelmed by the anxiousness I have-to meet my children.
I have to pray not to worry so much, that God will take care of them.
Today started out rough. I don't really know why today was more difficult in particular. That just seems to be part of the cycle I suppose. Sometimes I feel like I must be experiencing pregnancy because I feel so hormonal (i.e. crying about almost anything, especially anything that makes me think of Silas and Judah).
But, it always seems that when I am feeling low, God shows up to let me know that I am not alone, that He is with me. Today, that came in the form of watching some of my students perform an African dance at the talent show (which brought a couple of tears to my eyes even though it was in no way intended to be sad). It was getting a new video of both of our boys in the mail when I got home from work (I will watch it over and over again). And then it was reading a blog post from one of my friends who is adopting 2 babies from ET as well. She had several bible verses listed to help encourage us through this waiting period. I am reminded by this that I am not the only one who is waiting. In a sense, we are all waiting on SOMETHING. We may be waiting on the blessing of children, new jobs, someone worth marrying, promising test results, a change of heart for a loved one (or maybe ourselves, for a particular pain to lessen, or maybe love. We wait for hope in the future. These verses reminded me that our hope should be in Him. That even when things seem out of control (or out of MY control), HE has it under control. I hope these can help others who are waiting on whatever that may be. :)
Waiting with Courage:
"I remain confident of this: I will see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living. Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD." Psalm 27:13-14Waiting with Hope:
"But I trust in you, LORD; I say, 'You are my God.' My times are in your hands." Psalm 31:14-15
Waiting with Expectation:
"But as for me, I will look to the Lord and confident in Him I will keep watch; I will wait with hope and expectancy for the God of my salvation; my God will hear me." Micah 7:7
Waiting with Strength:
"But those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint." Isaiah 40:31
"The reality of waiting is that it’s an expression of God’s goodness not empirical evidence against it. He is wise and loving. His timing is always right, and his focus isn’t so much on what you will experience and enjoy, but on what you will become. He is committed to using every tool at his disposal to rescue you from yourself and to shape you into the likeness of his Son. The fact is that waiting is one of his primary shaping tools."
-Paul Tripp from the article Spiritual Muscle Development.
